1. "Nice pic" (everybody gets that)
2. I love older guys"
3. "I've been a naughty boy, Daddy. "
I hate being called Daddy. Maybe I'm 20 or 30 years older than you, but I'm not your father.
Ricky with a Y (he specified the Y even though I could see it on the screen) wasn't physically spectacular: in his 20s, a little shorter than me, with a handsome face, a hairy chest, not particularly muscular, a little small beneath the belt. But he stood out from the crowd by his lack of obnoxious cruising. We talked about The Walking Dead and the musical Titanic rather than the things he wanted me to do to him.
He found out that I was a college professor without making a stupid joke about requiring special after-class tutoring, wink wink nudge nudge.
He found out that my birthday was coming up without making a stupid joke about dinosaurs.
Nor did he call me Daddy.
So of course I accepted the date, for the Saturday after my birthday. "Leave everything to me. This is my town, so I know my way around. I'll give you an unforgettable night."
"This is my baby -- I've had her since college. You should have seen me tooling around Harvard Yard."
Ok, everybody I've known who went to Harvard was crazy. I waited to find out what Ricky's eccentricity was. Other than being Ricky with a Y.
We went to dinner at a place called Grille 26, where the prices were high and the food boring: scallops, pasta, steak.
And the craziness began. He psychoanalyzed everything.
"What do you do for a living?" I asked politely.
"Interesting that you would start off with the financial rather than my artistic or spiritual life. Do you feel dissatisfied with your own economic success?
"Um...I was just trying to be polite."
By the way, he helped run the family soft drink company, which was quite successful, with root beer, birch beer, and cola that was #3 in the state, after Coke and Pepsi. He also ran a mail-order company specializing in gay pride merchandise, and in his spare time he did financial consulting. And he wanted to talk about his artistic side?
"My favorite food is Thai," I continued, making small talk.
"Interesting. Is the food a stand in for the people? Fetishization of Asians is quite common in gay communities, I understand. They're stereotyped as soft and passive, easy to dominate, particularly if you're insecure about your sexual prowess."
"I'm not...i'm not insecure about my sexual prowess! I just like pad thai."
And on and on.
Why did I stay friends with most of my ex-lovers? Was I reluctant to let go, let the past stay the past, because I was afraid to face the future, the inevitability of death?
Why did I call my mother every week, but not my father?
Why didn't I allow my dinner companion to try one of my scallops?
Finally, after what felt like an intensive psychotherapy session, Ricky with a Y said "This has been fascinating, but we'd better be going, or we'll be late for the theater."
"Why does the lamp shaped like a lady's leg bother you? Is it the disembodiment, the objectification of women? Or does it make you doubt your own sexual identity?"
Then we went to an upscale dance club -- for heterosexuals.
"Come on, there's nothing to be afraid of. This isn't the homophobic 1980s. Why are you afraid to admit that things have gotten better for gay people? Does it threaten your raison d'etre?"
"Why are you Ricky with a Y?" I countered. "Is it so people don't mistake you for Ricki with an I, a girl's name? Are you trying to draw attention to your Y chromosome? Do you think that being gay makes you a girl?"
"Good point! But getting back to..."
By the time Ricky said "This has been great! Let's go back to my place!", I had been run through the emotional wringer a dozen times. I wanted to go home and curl into a fetal position.
But maybe a nice peaceful wordless sexual encounter would be a good antidote.
He had a modern apartment, all steel-and-glass, with plants and abstract art and leather furniture. We kissed for awhile on the couch, then went into the bedroom. Where the psychoanalyzing began again.
I had to work very hard to avoid making a comment about his extra-small penis and extra-big car.
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